I wanted a dog. I needed a dog. I longed for a dog. I got a dog.
She was an adorable 9 week old lab mix puppy. She had sleek black fur with touches of white on her muzzle and paws plus a white streak down her chest.
For a week or more, her name was simply The Puppy. I couldn’t decide on a name. I picked a few names that I liked and that were yell-able [definition: a name that can be bellowed or hollered throughout the neighborhood], and I wrote them on scraps of paper. Throwing the papers on the floor, I asked The Puppy to choose. She grabbed her selection. Still not sure, I threw the slips of paper down again. Once again, she picked the same name…Delilah.
Delilah was a high energy, fun loving, strong willed dog. I had to earn my position as Alpha. But I loved her. We did everything together, and she went everywhere with me.
That was Pre-marriage & Pre-kids.
When Todd and I got married, we moved to Pennsylvania. He installed an underground radio fence for Delilah; the type with the beeping collar to warn the dog when she is too close to the boundary.
I wanted her to have lots of safe room to romp outside, so we included a huge area for her and for our new puppy, Daphne.
Honestly, I expected Delilah’s will to propel her across the line…beep or no beep…shock or no shock.
I couldn’t have been more wrong.
An offensive step too close to the line, and the beep froze her to one spot. Sitting in the middle of the boundaries, she failed to enjoy the open space.
Opportunities. Joys. Treasures.
The yard was a dog’s dream.
But she sat…stuck…frozen…scared.
Is it safer to stay rooted in one spot? Is it safer not to put yourself out there? Is it safer not to be vulnerable? Is it safer not to truly live? Is it safer to stay down if you fall?
I mess up. I fall. I cross the boundaries.
I hear the beeping. I feel the sting. I freeze.
I feel like I am watching the opportunities, the joys, the treasures swirl around me. While I sit in darkness. Unable to join in.
If I stay stuck, my enemy wins.
Lord, be my light in darkness.
I want to rise.
I will rise. I will fight for joy by Your power. You are my hope.
Micah 7:7-9
But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord,
I wait for God my Savior;
My God will hear me.Do not gloat over me, my enemy!
Though I have fallen, I will rise.
Though I sit in darkness,
The Lord will be my light….
He will bring me out into the light;
I will see his righteousness.