[Hagar] gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.
I love to run in BIG races. I get a kick out of running with all those people. Great people watching combined with exercise. Such fun. There are people of all shapes and sizes. People old, people young, some limping, some strong. Some with fancy running apparel and some with mismatched sweats.
Before the race begins, it is nearly impossible to judge who will be ahead of me and who will be behind me. Often the young muscle bound jock is left in the dust of the fat old man who is dragging his right leg.
In November I ran the Richmond Half Marathon. I had severe anemia that really slowed me down (probably should have stopped me). I wanted to shout out that I really could be faster, but I don’t have enough iron & hemoglobin!
But most of the runners didn’t see me. Each of them had their own story of what brought them out that morning, of why they run the way they do, of where they have come from and of where they are going.
Sharing stories on Facebook is a fun way to keep up with the goings-on of friends and families. It is similar though to running a race beside people. You can’t always see what is really going on in a person’s heart and life just by looking at smiling pictures and witty status updates. The cover may be very different than the truth that lies within.
By outward appearances, my children look healthy. And for the most part I would describe them that way except that hidden inside there are autoimmune time bombs. Timothy was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes at age 5. He, along with Chloe and Abby, was diagnosed with celiac disease about 4 years ago. Then Chloe was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis in November 2011.
Right now we are just over two weeks on the Specific Carbohydrate Diet as a treatment for Chloe. We were delighted when Chloe’s tummy pain subsided. Unfortunately, some pain has returned and the diarrhea hasn’t decreased.
I can not completely understand what is going on in her body, mind and heart. I can not understand completely what is going on in my own for that matter.
In Genesis, Hagar found herself alone, sent away, pregnant, and lost. Lost to a jumble of thoughts, worries, and emotions. The angel of The Lord found her sitting near a spring in the desert. She gave the name “El Roi” to The Lord because she saw the One who saw her. The Lord really saw her. He knew her beyond our imaginations, and He came to her.
My heart feels jumbled. My worries are real. I am assured though that my God has not led me into the desert to abandon me to thirst or to hunger.
I have seen the One who sees me.